a cheat sheet nonetheless

things are oddly familiar at the moment. not much difference from the arrangement i was in a couple of years ago. im not quite sure what im doing once again. things are fun. things are natural; sometimes a little too natural that it scares me. i want to be able to just roll with the punches, but the inner smart in me is worrisome. this isnt a situation i need to put myself through again. i wasnt too happy when it ended last. i doubt it will be any different this time around. what to do?