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sigh of relief
out with the old; in with the new. ive been keeping this secret from so many people for so long. today i'm coming clean. its part of my past now, and im starting to feel more comfortable telling the story.
december 11, 2007 was when i thought my life was over. a good friend was visiting, so there was something to celebrate on a monday night. i refrained from drinking excessively because i was the driver. any other night, i wouldn't have cared. i admit, i've driven in worse conditions before, but that night i felt i needed to be careful. ironically, on our way home, i was pulled over and later charged with driving under the influence. i was then thrown in a women's detention facility also known as filthy jail. i shared the cell with three prostitutes and some girl who actually deserved a dui. it was the longest five hours of my life. i was completely sober. it felt like an episode of "scared straight," and i have been on this roller coaster a la california legal system ever since. a pleading that was submitted in my case was shown to me. the caption: state of ca v. me. that was an awakening in and of itself.
today july 30, 2008, it all finally ended. i walked away still with some infringing sentence as penalty for my driving "under the influence," but i walked away redeemed and relieved. it was the best feeling i've felt in awhile. this long, arduous, worrisome process is now done. i can finally move on.
i understand my actions that december night were somewhat careless.. but i also defend that i was not acting out of complete irrationality and disregard for other's and my own safety. i blew below the legal limit. i was fine to drive. what is the point of having a legal standard when that "standard" is merely subjective and solely up to the (under-trained) officer on duty? my unfortunate luck permitted me to be in the wrong place at the worst possible time, and i was reprimanded for it. but i'm done. i am past talking about the specifics, and i'm over feeling cheated. i promised not to be bitter about this anymore. my focus will now be on living a new life sans all that happened, and learning from this twisted little life lesson. the past few months have dragged me down, and turned me into someone i do not like. but, realization and acceptance are the first baby steps, things are starting to look up from here.
december 11, 2007 was when i thought my life was over. a good friend was visiting, so there was something to celebrate on a monday night. i refrained from drinking excessively because i was the driver. any other night, i wouldn't have cared. i admit, i've driven in worse conditions before, but that night i felt i needed to be careful. ironically, on our way home, i was pulled over and later charged with driving under the influence. i was then thrown in a women's detention facility also known as filthy jail. i shared the cell with three prostitutes and some girl who actually deserved a dui. it was the longest five hours of my life. i was completely sober. it felt like an episode of "scared straight," and i have been on this roller coaster a la california legal system ever since. a pleading that was submitted in my case was shown to me. the caption: state of ca v. me. that was an awakening in and of itself.
today july 30, 2008, it all finally ended. i walked away still with some infringing sentence as penalty for my driving "under the influence," but i walked away redeemed and relieved. it was the best feeling i've felt in awhile. this long, arduous, worrisome process is now done. i can finally move on.
i understand my actions that december night were somewhat careless.. but i also defend that i was not acting out of complete irrationality and disregard for other's and my own safety. i blew below the legal limit. i was fine to drive. what is the point of having a legal standard when that "standard" is merely subjective and solely up to the (under-trained) officer on duty? my unfortunate luck permitted me to be in the wrong place at the worst possible time, and i was reprimanded for it. but i'm done. i am past talking about the specifics, and i'm over feeling cheated. i promised not to be bitter about this anymore. my focus will now be on living a new life sans all that happened, and learning from this twisted little life lesson. the past few months have dragged me down, and turned me into someone i do not like. but, realization and acceptance are the first baby steps, things are starting to look up from here.
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